Archive for January 24th, 2010

The New Year has already started. January will be gone soon before I know it. I am behind on the workout. I am a bum. Given the excuse of being swamped I allow myself to be less active fitness-wise. Besides, the building is having construction that blocks and dusts up the stairway. I have to delay my daily plan of climbing the stairway of 12 floors. It is one of my new year’s resolutions. I can’t wait till they are done with the construction. My body is in the stage of storing glycogen. I give myself 2 more weeks before I can actually get this plan going to burn extra calories and tone up.
The next step is re-building those muscles that I lost during the past three years. Looking back I miss that muscular body of mine 5 years back, when I just moved down to Houston from Minnesota. Those days of biking and being a gym rat and hard-core training, wow I admire myself back then. My body can’t take the protein powder in now. It gives me light-headedness. I will be in trouble.
On the other hand, I am work-demanded; new staff needs training for new process; projects and travels seen as possibly coming. Add to that I am still counting down on a special mission (possible, I believe). Counting down towards an unknown date is quite a time-extending probability. More than ever do I feel the need to have more time for myself and other meaningful purposes of life. It has to be meaningful in all ways and in evreything I do or put effort in doing… Is there such a thing as perfect timing? I believe there is. Let there ‘d be. I trust my instinct. Emotional, let it be emotional. Let’s not be analytical.
Work-wise, I will have to delegate more work from my department to my data analyst, rather than transition. Anyone would want to keep his/her own job right now. But to work smart takes some skills and some manpower.

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Watching the movie “Meet Mr. Joe Black” puts me in the mood of analysis. First time catching the movie on tv, I missed the first part. So I had to watch it twice to understand it. This is the rework of 1934’s “Death Takes a Holiday”. A young man who has not experienced much with love in life, who just met a doctor woman he had feeling for, dies from the accident. A death soul is ready for rebirth or being reincarnated into human, picked up and entered the deceased young man’s body. A businessman has a few heart attacks as he is reaching his 65th birthday. The death soul has wandered around to find a “substantive” soul to make it a complete “human being”. The death soul then comes to the old businessman, finds him (his soul, actually) “eminently usable” and “having first-rate” life. He picked him for his verve, his excellence, and for his ability to instruct. Knowing it’s not time for the old man to go yet, the to-be-reborn soul therefore chooses him as a guide on the new life by extending the old man’s last days on earth, and becomes his house-guest. This soul also continues the other young man’s fate which is to be with the woman he’d fallen in love with, who is the old man’s daughter.
Hear this and we’d see the mission of “to be alive”:

Looking for that ‘ounce
of excitement’, that ‘whisper of a
thrill’ — What there is no sense
living your life without. You know
what I mean, Bill

That is the main theme of the movie. I believe.
I am into the philosophy of the movie, the stories of love, the death becomes life for a life’s mission – that is to feel love and being in love.
The love of a father (played by Anthony Hopkins) to a daughter (played by Claire Forlani) is so deep that sometimes it’s hard to let go, but expressed so well by him. The father who wants the best for her daughter “you have a future in front of you… I want you to levitate. I want you to sing with rapture and dance like a dervish.” He advised her to “Stay open. Who knows? Lightning could strike”. But at the same time, he also has it loosened up a bit

I know it’s a cornball thing but love is passion, obsession, someone you can’t live without. If you don’t start with that, what are you going to end up with? I say fall head over heels. Find someone you can love like crazy and who’ll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I’m not hearing any heart.
Run the risk, if you get hurt, you’ll come back. Because, the truth is
there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love — well, you haven’t lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven’t tried, you haven’t lived…

In agreement with Susan (the daughter), yes, “Lightning could strike. its so right it scares me.”

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